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hmm...i think i stole that from ani?
things flip each and every day. they twist and turn and take new shape. this includes my heart and head. but you know what? i welcome them all. i welcome the happiness and sadness of each new crazy day. it reminds me i'm alive. i have a smile on my face. thats huge. huuuuuuge. my cheeks are red from late night walks. my stomach growling from lack of food. i don't feel like i have money to eat. its weird. i know i do. sort of. but i'd rather save it for more important things. i'm tired. but wide awake. i'm sure. i'm unsure. my armpits stink. my hair is greasy. i don't ever want to wash my hair again. i want to look like kurdt. but i love washing it. all of the crazy suds and stuff. soapsoapsoapsoap. hmm...soap. i really hope our tour comes together. i really hope my heart comes together. i really hope my life comes together. do i know what i want? no, not really. am i ready to take on new and amazing personalities? umm... perhaps roles? you know as best as i do. i guesssssss that helps. that nobody reads this...i guess that helps. umumumumum. to sleep. i guess i'll sleep. its cold in here, and i welcome it. soon i'll hate myself for it, but for now, so it goes.

i met someone amazing who is equally as crazy. i'm not sure if i should fall deeply in love or run for the hills. both are options i welcome whole-heartedly after many moons of solitude.

well, my friends took me out last night, and ruined me. i turned 21, and they were going to make sure i knew it. i drank more than should be humanly possible, but i'm alive now, so i guess its ok. i didn't go to any of my classes today, and my folks came down to take me dinner. they said i stunk like booze. hehe. well, thankfully thats over, and i can get on with my life. fucking stupid americans, always have to do shit in excess, don't we? we're such assholes.